Miserable Wretch

Tread carefully in the eyes of the smiling Gods.
Oh I did not maintain eternal vigilance, and I at forbidden foods.
I am so unhappy today. Unable to feel like a VWM.
I have spoilt the gift.
I need to get back on track, and not repeat the act of greedy eating for the sake of instant gratification.
Alas.

Nothing new, something brand new

7June2005 I wrote this

Being in debt is a feeling

It is a feeling of waiting for money to rescue you; and then you will be able to reconnect with God. It is a state of waiting. Waiting for money. Then the time to live will come.

Why not first be worthy enough to connect with God. Don’t put God on hold.

And what is God? God is love.

How do you feel it personally?

Allow it in.

Ask for it.

Ask.

God cannot be present if you do not ask.

And in asking, make a decision to know that God is here, now.

Do not put god off because you are in debt. Do not put god on hold because first you must get out of debt before you can be worthy.

You did nothing wrong. So you are in debt.

Reconnect. God is not judging you. God is not your banker.

God is your source of energy, your higher frequency that will enable you to overcome. And you will know the great joy in overcoming.

Debt is heavy. Dense. It is a burden. Ask god for help.

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20 Sept 2013

I am writing this:

I see that the revelation is nothing new.

To effect lasting change, takes effort on a daily basis. A new habit needs to be formed.

It is not that I do not know the answers.

It is that I do not implement them.

But to be fair to myself now. what I know now is that things have actually changed, and that my knowledge is slightly nuanced. I have a greater understanding and I have learned some new techniques, new methods for implementing my knowledge.

I have changed my eating, my praying, my channeling of energy, and how to access an energy source and re-direct it instead of merely releasing it in the act of instant gratification.

Wanting wealth

I see that I have never allowed myself to actually and freely admit that what I truly and really want is wealth. I have obscured this want, even from myself. As if it must come to me indirectly, mysteriously, and from some outside source. Bestowed upon me as the result of hard work, and approval from others. Others in a position higher than myself.
But now I see that this is a sure way of never being wealthy.
Unless I clearly request and directly want to be a VWM, I will never be one, no matter how 'hard' I work or try.
For being a VWM has nothing to do with hard work or trying. It has to do with engagement. How I position myself when I interact with people and with myself; how I behave.
If I always interact from the standpoint of a VWM, my words will be different. I will say and do different things, and the outcome too will differ.
If I wait for permission to act like a VWM (i.e. until I have a lot of money) then I will never act like a VWM, and all I will end up doing is trying and trying harder.
Enjoy myself, be free. That is how a VWM acts.

Engaging as a VWM

ACTION of a VWM

Remember that my wealth does not depend on taking action that is perfect; 
My wealth depends on how I feel whilst taking action. 

When engaging with people or doing an activity, stop, and first BE the VWM. Gather the energy from my favorite God-given sources, and channel the energy I feel from my source, into the VWM.

The actions I take must be taken as if I am a VWM whilst taking those actions. This must become a habit. Do it for the little activities too.

KEY point
DO NOT take the action and postpone the VWM until the outcome of the action is ‘successful.’ Instead, be the VWM taking the action right now.

ALWAYS Speak to people from the standpoint of a VWM. DO not wait until I am a VWM. Instead, be the VWM when engaging.

Don't eat this.
Remember to be a VWM before I use my words

Good morning

GM VWM.
I feel great. Not sure what to do with this greatness.
I seek a two story home with pool, garden sunlight,  flatlet.
I can easily afford it. I am a VWM.

Transform the feeling to another feeling Jump start

Because I so seldom feel the intensity of anything, and because  so often just find myself going through the motions without the emotion, I need to jump start with one feeling, so I know what it feels like to feel with real feeling. Then take that feeling and transform it, copy paste to another scenario. 
So go from intense appreciation of female form to intense appreciate of the good things my wife stands fr in this world, and so show love, be kind, say good words, come from a loving place, a beautiful space, a strong place, and be a wealthy man in love with his wife. Transform to that.

Step 1. See the wondrous form
Step 2. No wank
Step 3. Copy paste
Step 4. I am a wealthy man in love with his wife. Be that man. Feel it.

remember this:
first, feel it for myself. be it myself. feel what I am feeling right now, for myself. Allow it fully. do not judge it from another person's point of view. do not seek approval. in this instance, be 'selfish'. focus on me, myself.  Be genuine. Do it for me. Feel it for me. Acknowledge my feelings - allow my feelings. Do not suppress them in the name of outsiders thinking xyz in reaction to my feelings.



If I own it, I am wealthy. A wealthy man.
  Start with owning myself. My feelings. Own them.

A VWM DOES NOT RUSH THE PM

A very wealthy man does not rush the present moment away. He lives in the present moment. Because he has a constant sense of power within. He does not make decisions based on money. He makes decisions based on uis sense of power within. He never seeks approval. He is kind. He is aware that God is One and that God is Love. He knows that Gd does not judge, bt that his own constant judgement is the only obstacle to good things. To wealth.
And get this: he is not afraid to ask for God to give him wealth.
He is not afraid to define his purpose as that of being a wealthy man.
He is not afraid of what the world might say.
He claims his wealth. It is all within his being. 
He never asks his wife permission for how he should feel.
He feels his power. His wealth.
And he is able to share it with kind words and deeds.