Jaco to help me with:

1. Self sabotage - the need to prove that I am right.
2. I want to be a VWM, but I am not doing very much about it
3. I do not desire strongly enough. What do I desire. If I desired it I would visualize it. 
4. I cannot stick to a daily vizualisation routine. So how will I get there then. It is like having no map.
5. Please help me set a destination I am driven by, and a map to get there.
6. I need a strong desire
7. I am a dad. Be responsible.
8. I am not activated. Not driven. Not doing enough.
9. I often feel lost. 
10. I constantly want to eat food that fucks me up
11. I eat food that gives me a headache then I act badly and speak rudely to HSC
12. I eat food that throws me off balance and I feel unnamed anxiety
13. the solution is to live an inspired life with goals that I aspire towards.
14. I want to be a great dad. but that is not a clear vision. it is just words.
15. I need to feel strong in body and mind and spirit.
16. Visi magazine. not me, almost surreal. do they exist. who are these people
17. where am I going wrong? what would you do if you could make me do anything. coach me
 

Jaco says it is about balance, not perfection, which is unrealistic and in effect gives me permission to go on a binge.

rather, go with my own food to the event so I have somehting to put in my mouth. go with a banana. a grapefruit. spanspek. eat my own stuff, have a cooler box.

jaco says the penalty is not bad enough to prevent me from doing it. but in fact it is. and whats more, the reward is great enough to keep me on track and eating well.

resonate with good energy. 

but perfection is not the goal. balance is.