Always testing the truth

Things that I know to be true for me I still do not believe in. I am always testing. Always overriding.
For instance. 
Money
It comes to me best when my energy is best.
And my energy is best when I am disciplined. 
With food.
When I treat myself to junk, my result follow suit.
I know this.
But still I push the limit.
Keep my energy up. that is my work.
And so to discipline.
Do not override my body. It knows what it needs to keep the energy going.
to make the energy high.
come on Ivan. the treats are short lived.
My baby needs me. Ben needs me to be great. For him.
Be disciplined, and maintain the discipline.
Eat. Yoga. Visualize. Know. Be driven by the inner peace. by the inner strength.