Decision, (the power of)

The power of decision is different of the power of Willpower.
Decision changes destiny. Decision actually creates. It creates who I am and it creates circumstance I find myself in. It is really who I am.
I spend so much of my time absent from being the Decision Maker, is it any wonder that I often feel so lost, so at sea in this world? Because if I am not living with a full awareness of my decisions, the power they possess, and what they are, then I will find myself feeling confused, powerless, and lost. I will not be happy.
Happy is he who is aware of the decisions he makes.
I often think that there are rules in place that have pre-decided the circumstances I find myself in and will find myself in. Bullshit. Be strong Ivan. Make a decision. It makes not difference to the Universe whether I experience X or Y - but it makes all the difference to me. And so, to distinguish myself from the mass universe, I need to take an individual decision about myself, and Decide.
The world, the universe is not in need of me to be governed by judgement and blame. rather, be in the mode of making a decision about everything. about me, and who I am. that is the way to joy :)