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Aug sales were great. Suddenly my zest has returned intact. Yay! Keep on truckin Apple!

 

Integritas

Integrity is how I conduct yourself when no one is watching.
It is whether I make exceptions to my own code.

It is a measure of my importance to myself.
If I see myself as small it is because I lack importance to myself.
Integrity is one way of maintaining importance.

Officially f and d

28/8/2013
Today I am officially f'd and depressed. I have a to do list a mile long, and I do not want to do one of the things on the list. I want to sit here and be left alone.
I am at the mercy of my chemistry because yesterday I was ill-disciplined.
So now I am out of balance.

Skirts

Most women really do not look good in a skirt. Unless I am looking up one. .

SMS to myself

Sometimes I say to hell with myself.
Such as when I eat junk today, knowing full well that tomorrow I will have no choice but to deal with it. I tis as if the "me" today is a different person from the "me" tomorrow. I am sending the me to morrw a message that says - eat shit. I eat impulsive food today, and tomorrow I have to deal with it.

EATING LIKE A PIG

2/9/2013
Despite all the knowledge I have, I still fucked myself over royally this weekend. So now I have a real Monday Mourning to deal with. I gave myself a shitload of chemistry to deal with and the result is that I am kak. I send myself an sms that stands for shit my self. why i do this on the weekend? is it because i like the food or is it because i am bored. i am bored. because i have no vision, no goals that inspire me. I leave a gaping gap and and I fill it with food that fucks me over.
look at this weekend:
starting on friday:
1. too much salad at 10pm, followed by bread and butter to fix the imbalance. perfect.
2. Sat morning - ok, then lunch a roll and calamari (needed the roll bec the calamari was shit. I needed to go out to eat because i was bored, no vision, no goal. no drive
3. hoime again in the avi I had a second espresso.. i needed it because of the lunch
4. the espresso was great
i woke up fucked on sunday
i had to have a peanut brittle at noon
then i had to have chips at night because i wanted to eat nice food
i sweated through the night even tho it was freezing
i woke up and did Yoga for 30 mins, that was my saviour
now i have a headache. but i have had my coffee and my thinking is ok.

Chemistry 101 IB

My mood is My chemistry
My chemistry depends on:
1. Money - news of lots of money coming my way makes me happy (for the time being)
2. Food - no matter what the other factors, if I eat foods that are wrong for me, everything else is reduced, and I feel like a struggle.
3. Other people
4. The thoughts I think

Do not eat:
1. Yoghurt - it makes my head very tired
2. Rice - it makes me sweat
3. Bread - it makes me tired, and eventually, sick
4. Ice cream - makes me tired and sick very quick
5. Overeat - anything that is good for me is no good when I overeat
6. Two espresso's in a day - the next day, and even two days, I am lethargic and totally out of energy

Do not think:
1. Lif eis meaningless.


Rather think:

1. 1/ Life is free
2. Do not be a control freak. Let go and let God
3. I want IP. Remember, that is all I want. I can have it now,at any moment. IP is being free.