time is fleeting.
is it?
yes, when looked at through the binoculars backwards.
but in the present moment, time is not fleeting. it is actually quite slow.
back to feeding the ants
their business of life is to eat flies. is that meaningful? not essentially. but taken as a whole, given the whole scheme of things, yes, there is meaning. at any rate, it is satisfying to swat a bzzzz and have the ants carry it away within minutes.
Tuesday, 20 January 2015
Ben says
Ben in the bath tub:
"Daddy, put your feet in the bath"
"Why?"
"Because it makes me happy"
priceless.
"Daddy, put your feet in the bath"
"Why?"
"Because it makes me happy"
priceless.
Feeding flies
Today I discovered a new sport. Fly swatting - hit them on the window, they drop onto the sill, and the ants come and collect them within minutes. So at least the ants are fat and happy.
Heidi is still petrified and refuses to even sit under my desk. Poor little pooch.
here is another irritating buzz. gotta go.
Heidi is still petrified and refuses to even sit under my desk. Poor little pooch.
here is another irritating buzz. gotta go.
Sunday, 11 January 2015
It's all in the mind (not)
That was a real mind-fuck for me - "It's all in the mind"
It took me round in circles for many years, decades even. It is a saying that a survivalist mentality would subscribe to.
Its all in the mind is what I believed. Therefore I could not believe in God. Because God was also in the mind - just a figment of my imagination.
I can say that all in the mind is not a belief that served me well. It got me locked up inside my mind, and cut me off and got me disconnected from God.
Not that I am especially connected to God right now - but at least I know that God is not all in my mind; I know that there is a God that exists independently of my mind, of my thoughts, of my ego.
Does God know me, care for me?
I think that God loves me; but I think that this love is objective, it is not personal in that God does not specifically love Apple Cohen.
I think that God made me so that I could make love and make the world a meaningful place.
What counts is to make love. I love making money. God loves making love. Beauty is God showing not telling. God shows love. We are never told. God does not need to speak. God shows.
Does God show me personally? Yes, to the extent that I ASK.
love love love God prayer.
Know that God is one, God is love, God is real. then pray. ASK! asking means connection. survival prompts me to ask. and that is the right thing to do. going it alone is not what makes god happy. connection is. so ask. please pass the salt. stop stretching over table...
It took me round in circles for many years, decades even. It is a saying that a survivalist mentality would subscribe to.
Its all in the mind is what I believed. Therefore I could not believe in God. Because God was also in the mind - just a figment of my imagination.
I can say that all in the mind is not a belief that served me well. It got me locked up inside my mind, and cut me off and got me disconnected from God.
Not that I am especially connected to God right now - but at least I know that God is not all in my mind; I know that there is a God that exists independently of my mind, of my thoughts, of my ego.
Does God know me, care for me?
I think that God loves me; but I think that this love is objective, it is not personal in that God does not specifically love Apple Cohen.
I think that God made me so that I could make love and make the world a meaningful place.
What counts is to make love. I love making money. God loves making love. Beauty is God showing not telling. God shows love. We are never told. God does not need to speak. God shows.
Does God show me personally? Yes, to the extent that I ASK.
love love love God prayer.
Know that God is one, God is love, God is real. then pray. ASK! asking means connection. survival prompts me to ask. and that is the right thing to do. going it alone is not what makes god happy. connection is. so ask. please pass the salt. stop stretching over table...
Side effect
The unwanted side effect of life is death
The side effect of living is dying
The main purpose of life is to live
The main purpose of death is to remind you to live and love
being alive; to live and love the people in your life
So, I love you! xxx ivi xxx
The re-discovery of curry
Good curry, not hot chillies, have given me a boost. the trick now is not to waste it, overdo it, test it. Be wise.
Sunday, 4 January 2015
So this is 2015
I realize that my present self has no sense of connection to my future self. I am therefore impulsive.
So I will now use this technique.
1. Stop before I scoff.
2. Bring my future exhausted and limp self into my body now. Let it take hold.
3. If I do this effectively, there is no way I will indulge because the pleasure I derive from the present moment of indulgence cannot be greater than the 24 hours of dragging myself through life that will follow.
4. Yes I hear you : what will I do with all that happy energy. There is nothing to do with it because I am so stuck. My answer is this Ivan. Provence. that is what I will do. That is what I will BE.
It is who I am when I am the disciplined ONE.
So I will now use this technique.
1. Stop before I scoff.
2. Bring my future exhausted and limp self into my body now. Let it take hold.
3. If I do this effectively, there is no way I will indulge because the pleasure I derive from the present moment of indulgence cannot be greater than the 24 hours of dragging myself through life that will follow.
4. Yes I hear you : what will I do with all that happy energy. There is nothing to do with it because I am so stuck. My answer is this Ivan. Provence. that is what I will do. That is what I will BE.
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