Expect to be Strong

Be strong. Claim it. Just f.claim it. Permesso not required. Be it.
Take it
Don't fake it
Know it
Don't show it
Know it
It show, don't it
I am the whole world
there is no other
there is no other
I am it.

there it is.
it is there.
here I am.
be here. always be here, and know that I am here.

Peephole will look
peephole will say
but what do they know
they know little
I know a lot
I am not trying to convert them
just myself
believe me I know
go far, Apple, go far.
to that farmhouse in Provence
meet me there.
I will be there

do not ask other people
they will never say yes.
it doesn't work that way
God always says yes,
no need to ask
Need to be strong and know
that is where you go

Busy day

I have a really busy day today, packed with things do do, and no time to do them all.
I'd better make time for God first.

Chemistry is reality

Your experience of the world is largely determined by your chemistry.
If you are not in balance, the world is tiring
If you in balance, the world is alive with possibility.

Pressing down on me

Pressure, pressing down on me
my own head is in a vice
I am not nice
I am out of control
I am a head troll.

So what is the answer, you loser of note
another note to me, something rubbish I wrote
to keep me afloat
hoping that tomorrow I will be a better man
a bigger, stronger, kinder man
for today I am fucked
well and truly fucked.
and it is of my own doing. and that is that.

Fucked in the head

Oops I did it again
I ate like a pig
Now I feel the pain
I add the cake
My happiness is fake
I have a headache
Can't think straight
My life it can't wait
I am always late

What is it with me?
I cannot be good Do as I know I should

Can't listen to myself
I take myself there
One day I am happy
then Monday I am dead
It is not all in the head
I want to stay in bed

Can't handle my self
can't handle my life
So I blame my wife

time to let go
of the bad things I know
let my god show
I'm no potato

I want to sit there
all neat
without a care
would i dare

others have done it,
no not I
I fear the control
so I lose it in total

I know everything
and yet I am fucked
the reason is simple
a lack of faith
of discipline when there is no faith
and of faith when there is no discipline
I want to be different
yet I am the same
wallowing in glory
alone in the dirt

fleeting time

time is fleeting.
is it?
yes, when looked at through the binoculars backwards.
but in the present moment, time is not fleeting. it is actually quite slow.

back to feeding the ants

their business of life is to eat flies. is that meaningful? not essentially. but taken as a whole, given the whole scheme of things, yes, there is meaning. at any rate, it is satisfying to swat a bzzzz and have the ants carry it away within minutes.

Ben says

Ben in the bath tub:
"Daddy, put your feet in the bath"
"Why?"
"Because it makes me happy"

priceless.