in my head there are cirtical rush jobs to be done, survival is at stake. and yet I have made the decision to leave it all to god. I have said today, god is love. leave it to god. it does not work that way of course. i still need to direct.
but yes, god does exist independently of me, and will exist whether i do or not. but does exist within me when i am here. god is love, but god does not love me unless i love god. is this unless i love god. is that unfair? no. that is perfectly fair for god is grace.
