gratitude

I am so lost.
I wish to feel grateful, because I know I am
for this wonderful powerful new laptop I am enjoying so much
but I feel so f'd in the head, I cannot feek great
2 espresso a day and some cola are not a good recipe for happiness health and balance :(

Religion

There is no one religion that is the only way.
Religion works for some.
Just like a computer runs a program, so do we.
We choose the program that we run. Our body does not question it.
so when i am inspired, it is because a program works for me. do not rush off and tell others to install it. they will run the program that works for them.

My Best Friend

My best friend, my only friend, my true friend is discipline.
To the extent that I maintain my discipline, I am happy with the people around me, and they are my friend, and I can be theirs.
I am in an unhappy place when I am chemically f-d. Then nothing is nice and nothing is good.
A meaningful life is not what I need. I need a connected life. And there is no connection without discipline.

I am good at writing discipline, but not that great at implementing it consistently. I am forever throwing a spanner in my works. why do I keep testing?

True discipline is rare.  That is the only thing that can separate me from the masses and make me feel at one with God, and not need to feel separate from anyone in the first place
. it always has been, and always will be. An eagle does not eat bread in the park. Go fishing Ivan. Eat right for me. I know the results. Seek not to tell others. Show, do not tell. Be that man.
Posture is essential, and so is good clothing and shoes.